If you're not on Facebook; You don't exist.

Like many people, For the last few years- Facebook has been my calender, my text messaging, my letter writing and my social outlet. In the beginning it was wonderful and brilliant. Oh the people i could find, The things I could share! But very soon, I realized something; I don't remember how I made friends, kept friends or was even invited out before Facebook.
I couldn't recall the last time I logged out for a weekend, or even at all. Not a party or trip that didn't include my buddy Facebook right by my side, ready to tell 300 more people what I was doing. And almost seemingly- My social life over the last few years is a flurry of Picture tags, Check in's and passive aggressive status's at people I honestly had no requirement for in my life.

So here we are now. As of 12:01am February 1st, I, a hyper social yet awkward 21 year old girl- Have deactivated my Facebook. For the next 30 days at very least.
I've decided I don't need what appears to be- the eternal approval of my Facebook "friends". Is my hair bright enough? Are my shoes cute enough? Does my dinner date with so-and-so make you wish you were here? Because it boils down quite simply- "Validation" from that guy you met through a work function 2 years ago; Is not, and will never be- validation.

Before I solidly settled on my Deactivation of Facebook i thought "Maybe i could just delete everyone I don't need on there!" Meaning, My closest friends, Some family I can stand, and a few of my little brothers friends- Just to keep an eye out on him, of course.  Then I remembered- I've done this before. 500 friends, Down to 20 and almost instantly- all the way back up to 300+. Who these people were and why I needed to know what they've had for dinner, I don't know, But there they were. In my feed, inviting me to events i would not attend in 1000 years.

So for the next 30 days, I'm going to remember, Just how I socialized before Facebook and maybe even prove to at least 1 person, even if it is just myself- That just because they add you on Facebook, Does not make you friends; And just because someone isn't on Facebook, Does not mean they're not your friend.

Will this work? I don't know. I might be that hopelessly networking addicted I might fail. Fall on my face and go crawling back to the warm blue arms of Facebooks tidy organization. Or, Like my partner who has never had a Facebook; I might just never, ever return after my 30 days.